Terrible Tragedy

Insane

2011-01-23T18:02:00.000-08:00

I walk in circles,
In this dimly lit room.
A knife, my closest friend, in hand.

The blood running down my arm,
forms a puddle in the palm of my hand.
The warmth comforting me.

I whisper to myself,
Questioning my sanity.

As I stare at myself,
In the reflection of the window,
The dark oblivion beyond,
I see someone else.
Wild-eyed, Insane.
His wicked cold smile.
Hair in his face.
Blood covering his arms.
Wounds, wounds that will never heal.
Not even on the inside.

I start to shake.
In fear? Halfway.
A psychotic state of mind,
That stays hidden.
Until now.

The blood spills onto the floor.
Warm, sticky... comfort.
All the comfort I would ever need.

I shake more. Violently.
In shear panic. Fear.
Someone calls my name.

"Triston..."
My name said cautiously.
I slowly turn from my reflection.
She's here... Hope?

And it's gone. At least for awhile.
No longer on the edge of insanity.
A complete psychotic state of mind.

Tears run down my face.
Still shaking... and it's over.

Just Truth

2011-01-12T17:09:00.000-08:00

Days pass by.
The more I lie.
The more I seem to cry.

I stomped on your heart,
And also stomped on mine.
Unintentional wounds,
Even with time,
They'll never heal.

Although my apologies,
Probably mean nothing to you.
They mean everything to me,
And they'll never make up,
For what I've done.

As minutes go by,
I dont even realize,
How I empty I feel,
Just without you,
Right by my side.

No more secrets.
No more lies.
Just truth...

Days

2011-01-02T13:10:00.000-08:00

There goes my life.
Walking away.
I can do nothing,
To stop it anyway.

I'm lost in my own misery.
But I just guess,
thats how its supposed to be.
I dont care at all,
and it's pulling me back.

Days turning into years.
Nothing is what it used to be.
I had my future in my hands,
And I gave it away,
Like it didnt even matter.

Now it's all over.
I wait in silence,
for anything to come.

Nothing Left

2011-01-01T12:58:00.001-08:00

I walk down this path.
Forever lost in the dark.
Leaving my old self, behind.
Trapped in my own misery.

So cold,
Breathing in smoke.
Never lasting love,
Dragging me down.
It's killing me.

As if I wasn't dead already.

I'm leaving home,
I'll walk until my feet bleed.
There's no way out of this curse.

I got what I wanted.
Sold what I had.
And now I have nothing left.

The Gun

2010-12-19T17:00:00.001-08:00

He put the gun to his head
He put the gun to his damned head
and said, "Baby, I promise you won't forget
about the things that I've said."

As he shook with anger
He stared her in the eyes
He sighed and shouted,
"Why do I have to put up with
your fucking lies?!

"You went behind
my back for the last time.
I'll never have to see the day
when you go back to him
and tell me it's okay!"

It's okay!
It's okay!
It's okay!
It's okay!

He put the fucking gun to his head
He put the fucking gun to his damned head
and said, "This is the last time
you'll ever see my face,
And I hope it's a fucking disgrace."

As he shook with anger
He stared her in the eyes
He sighed and shouted,
"Why do I have to put up with
your fucking lies?!

"This is the last day
I'll ever have the thought
of you going back to him,
you stupid whore."

He put the fucking gun to his head
He put the fucking gun to his damned head
and said, "Baby how could you do this to me?
I've been here for you through everything
but apparently that means nothing to you!"

As he shook with anger
He stared her in the eyes
He sighed and shouted,
"Why do I have to put up with
your fucking lies?!"

So he closed his eyes
thinking of all the lies,
and pulled that trigger.
She was his demise.

The Noose

2010-12-18T17:49:00.000-08:00

I see myself hanging from the ceiling.
I would burn myself alive.
I could slit my own throat.

I see myself drowning,
In tears of guilt.
How ironic,
My own tears are killing me.

So people stop caring.
And they won't stop staring,
At this world of destruction.

No one cares about you or me,
And they never will.
So might as well kill yourself baby.

So lets hang ourselves.
Let's burn ourselves alive.
Let's slit our throats,
And not even care,
About the words that they say about us.

Screw it.
We might as well go out in style baby.

Let death redefine us,
As something new and improved.
Let sorrow fill our hearts.
Instead of love and happiness.

Let's finish our suicide notes
So we can get to the fun part already.

Your Heart

2010-12-17T16:40:00.000-08:00

Sitting in regret
This is all my fault
There's nothing more to get
From this sickening promise I have broken

I lied
I tried to save you
I tried to ignore it
But I couldn't take what you said to me

I heard the gunshot
And I couldn't believe it
I heard your voice fade away
As I was locked in a cage
By mental rage

You pulled the trigger way too fast
But I promise this was meant to last
As blood spilled on the floor
I could not endure
The pain that was given to us

I was going to use
That last chance to prove
That I fucking love you

But you pulled the trigger way too fast
And I promise that this was meant to last

Thank god
That the bullet
Missed your heart

All You Do Is Complain

2010-12-16T17:19:00.000-08:00

These dark memories
These dark thoughts
That are all about death
Never end

A careless suicide
I see the darker side
You dont see anything
Dont you throw a fit

Your life doesn't mean a thing
You'll rot as the birds sing
In my blood you'll soak
Lost in my words I choke

There is nothing left to take
All you need is a shake
To make you see that you have more
Than I'll ever even care for

So just go kill yourself
See if I care myself
Stop complaining about your life

Happiness Doesn't Exist

2010-12-15T14:54:00.000-08:00

Why am I so afraid?
As colors start to fade,
I'm starting not to care.

As my blood turns black,
I start to think back,
When people used to stare.

While the blood runs down my wrists,
I think how happiness doesn't exist.
Happiness was just an illusion.

I wish there was something left.
Who cares now,
My heart was already ripped out of my chest.

I'll put the bullet in my brain.
The blood will leave nothing but a stain.
The expression left on my face,
Will be nothing but a disgrace.

Not Truthful Enough

2010-12-14T15:40:00.000-08:00

Every time I fall asleep,
I pretend I'm dying.
Every time I smile,
I'm really lying.

Can you see this misery,
Silently taking over me?

My arms are bleeding,
Time's running out.
Eyes once open,
Now shut tight.

Oh, this will be,
My great demise.
What have I become?
Telling all these lies.

Now the truth
Will never be told.
It will sit in the back of my head,
Torturing me instead.

Destroyed

2010-12-13T15:23:00.000-08:00

With blood in my eyes,
I can't see further.
Though time will pass,
and now it's all over.
Eventually you will fade away.
But these wounds will never heal.

I've breathed in lies,
As they came from your mouth.
A new day will rise,
And I will fade away.

How long did you think this would last?

I drowned in tears,
Tears wasted over you.
I let you take everything away.
I'll still bleed anyway.

You held me when I cried.
You wiped the tears from my eyes.
But you hurt me more than anything,
And didn't even realize it.
You destroyed me.

Dream

2010-12-12T14:58:00.000-08:00

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Dream

by Triston Woodland on Sunday, December 12, 2010 at 12:36am

My body is laying here,
Rotting slowly in place.
Regret wearing me down.
Pain lurks within my empty chest.

Why can't it be over?
Well I've failed a thousand times.
But never was it quite like this.

Carelessness about my mistakes.
Forever turning around.
Changing everything,
We had in sight.
Now I lie here,
Blind, without a light.

Scared to sit up,
To just walk away.
Bleeding sorrow,
A wound no one can heal,
But maybe myself.

I've lost what I once had.
Just a memory now,
Withering away.
Taking it's time.

The world seems to spin,
Slower and slower everyday.
Tomorrow will never come.
It doesn't matter anyway.

Not a word came from my mouth.
Though I wouldn't be heard.
There was nothing to say.
I left without a doubt.

If only this where just a dream.